I've had enough! Will you stop it? I don't even understand what you were trying to say in any of your long-winded smses. Serious! What is it about me not treating my friends properly? What is your problem? Hey! I'm sorry i did not reply to any of your smses okay?! I just don't want to! So what if i'm being arrogant or being a bitch? I just don't get it! What is wrong with you? I do understand if you were tryna say that i'm being arrogant and tryna run away fom my problems about you, but this? Telling me, that i do not know how to treat the friends who actually care for me? I do treat my friends pretty well. The friends whom actually stayed by my side and cheers me up. I won't treat nicely to someone who call him/her a friend of mine but, backstabs me. Not wanting to tell why we are drifting apart? Not the friend who made me a left-out. Okay, i do, really understand that maybe.. maybe she doesn't want to hurt me. But do you know that, if you want to be called a True friend, you need to help each other? in this case me!, the truth? Although it will tear me apart. I can handle it okay! Why do you think we have to live? To bear the regrets and pains. I can handle it. Yeah. Apart from bearing all of those pathetic shits in lives, there are also awesome things. Like, making you laugh and roll.. and cry because you cannot take the joke anymore. I love my life! I love my friends! And once again, what the hell is wrong with you? Trying to say about what?? its not about people disliking me or trying to hurt me, but it's how i treat them? Gosh! I'm repeating this again! You think that i'm the only one who doesn't treat my friends well? Then, think again. Think long and hard. I'm not perfect. You see, i've got flaws and all. Other people too.
My friends too. And i accept who they are. Maybe, you've got the wrong person here. Don't misjudge me. If this is about the, ' making a friend of mine upset because we didn't tell her' thingy. Then, we're so sorry. Not to you, but to her. Of course! We were fools. We fucking thought you guys left us! Without even contacting. And now, tryna put the blame on us? On me? What?! I didn't have the slightest intention to leave you guys, without 'contacting'. This is bullshit! Bullshit! Bullshit! Bullshit! I don't understand you people! Guess what, this whole day fucked up. I'm not the only left hurt, even my other friends too. Some of us gave up, a friend nearly cried, i was helpless. And you add on more about this thing laa, that thing laa. Tsk. When will i be able to tell the truth without friends leaving me? This is so so lameeeeee!
I tried being nice, tried to control my anger.
But problems worsen each day.

This is real, this is me.
I'm exactly where i'm supposed to be,now
Gonna let the lights shine on me
Now i've found, who i am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who i want to be
This is me