Friends come and go.

We used to laugh, play, joke around.. alot. Well, i just miss the old times when we will simply laugh at anything or everything, yknow just be happy. But now, things have changed. And i really don't like the way they have been treating me. I treated them like sisters and i wasnt afraid to share with them almost everything about my life. Now that we are on different paths, we don't talk that much anymore. They have got their own set of friends now, so they don't need me anymore. Tried to be kind and nice though, but it's like they are shoving me away. Babes, if this is how you treat me then i'll do the same. This has been bugging me since i started poly and i tried to ignore this shitty feeling but it just keeps coming back. You and your 'friends' are all the same. Liars and hypocrites. You know, i'm tired of this 'silent' treatment so i'll just back off and don't expect me to reply any of your messages or whatsoever when you need me. Oh yes, i can be very mean.

Fair isnt it?

What's this, "I love you" when you don't mean it at all? Gosh seriously people. Please stop being nice infront of me when all you do is talk shits about me behind my back.
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I miss 2008, seriously. Let's just ignore the feud between me and the girls. I miss those days when there were 'sparks' between me and you baby. Right now, it's all different. Sigh. I can just cry when i reminsce the sweet moments back then. Do you even care?

And to this girl. She completely.. disappears.. Though we are in the same block, on the same level, just BESIDE my class, we don't see each other at all. It is just frustrating when your friends meet new people, they tend to forget the old friends.

I think i just need to let it go, be myself and move on. No use finding them when they don't even say Hi when we walk past each other. Funny isnt it, that they are called friends when they don't really act like one? More like strangers huh. Can i just rewind time and pause? I don't really want to go to the future. I don't want to lose more friends, i don't want my love life to be so rocky, i don't want to stress myself out because of studies. Sigh, i think i should just care less about these people and concentrate more on my studies. Speaking of studies, OMGZZZZZZZ! I felt like shutting my eyes and ears completely when they lectured on my next modules. Hahaha. PP somemore! I.. can.. die! HAHA. Planned to study with Shar this coming Feb-March hols. Prepare ourselves for Year 2. I'm gonna stay positive. I really wanna do well. Syg is taking A levels this year. Haha fuuuhhh good luck baby. Go get straight A's! Haha.