Back.
I'm certainly not happy yet but trying my best to be a strong girl.
Yea love stinks especially when one is unsure of the feelings, or unsure whether they should go on with the relationship. My mind said, Leave but the heart said, Stay. So which one should i actually listen to? Why is it so hard for me to just leave?
Wanna know what's stopping me? Him. Though it has been a year plus, my love for him is still strong. We've been through alot of shits but it's love man. Youve got to go through fucked up situations and all to see how strong the relationship is. We had great memories, it was just wonderful. So there were some fights in the middle but i have never stopped loving you syg. Till today, i keep blaming myself for what happened in the past. I'm really really sorry.
When i asked for it and obviously, it's not something that i want. I had to. It's all because of you. All you said was, youre unsure, you don't know. I wonder what the other girls would do if they were to hear such stupid answers from their boyfriends tsk. When i looked at you, i couldnt do it, i couldnt leave. My heart felt so heavy. Like, "What the hell am i doing?! I still love you!" But on the other hand, i don't want to live in misery anymore. I don't want to be the girl who is always upset because of this stupid thing called, Love. Like they say, It may not be what you want but this shit is not what you deserve. So should i sacrifice the love? Syg, youve got to fucking wake up! Stop your "don't knows". I know it's hard to make the decision but please, at least tell me what i'm suppose to do.
Sigh, the sad part is i still love you very much.
I’m tired of waiting for you, I’m sick of always falling for your words. I want to leave, but something about you keeps pulling me back in.
On a brighter note, THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE! Kay, that is not something i'm excited about. Holidays are boring. No school, so money hahaha. Work? Easy for you to say. It's difficult when you have a dad like mine. Plus, i can't just apply for any job. Must look for the ones that will not affect his CPF? Aaaahh crap, whatever. I'm not gonna work now. Imma study first.
This June hols, i've planned to revise my modules And! Not to forget study for my A&P UT! Haha! There's a lot to study! *faints* Try to atleast do half or maybe a quarter of my PP. Meet up with this long lost buddy of mine, Refdee. I'm not sure if i got the time (or money). Like he said, "Mcm paham" Gathering with W64F. Balls, money again -.-"
Oh and didnt i say, i'm gonna open up a blogshop? ^^ Yes. Yes. Soon okay pretty people.
Goodnight
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