The Carnival

There are so many things that i wanna say. There are so many feelings that i wanna express in words. But too bad there are just so many things that have to be kept quiet. Yes, thank you for your concern and the smses every night. I did not want to reply because i was annoyed, frustrated ......... I did not want to reply because i was scared. I did not want to fight with you. Yes, everything you said was true. And i do treasure my history okay. Really! But there are so many things going on at one time. And i need time. I guess that, even our friendship is over. You've got so many questions that are left unanswered and how i wish, so badly that i could answer all of your doubts. But, seriously i cannot. Its a matter of friendships being torn apart. And definitely, i do not want that to happen. I could actually be direct to you too and say it all. But, no! I did not want to answer all of your doubts because i had to treasure a friendship before it happens again. I do not want to lose another friend. I don't even know if she is really, really a true friend of mine. :/ You said that i was a coward. You said that i needed someone else to talk for me. That is bullshit! I don't need someone to talk for me. It's just that whenever i have the urge to let it all out to you, i will break down. It's not that i'm a crybaby. I'm only scared that whatever i say won't work out. You know what i mean.. That is the fucking reason why my gf had to say it for me. I would be glad if i had the perfect chance to let it all out. Seriously. And the other thing is, i've checked myself. Thoroughly. I've checked that i just need to be myself. I know what i'm doing is right and is best for all. And when i say all, my close friends are included. Thanks alot for not being able to understand me after what you have done.


Yesterday was the Racial Harmony Day celebration and i'll be posting pictures later for Kendra, Wani and Gab. Anyway, today we had a carnival at Pasir Ris Park. It sounds awesome huh, but No! That one i'll talk later. First of all, i had to meet The Twins and Ais at the Mjc Bustop but Ais wanted to shop for a tie at Tm. And did i agree to follow her? No! Haha. I had only 0.50 or 0.20 left in my ez-link card. So, it's only for one trip. Pfft. So, i only met the Twins laa. Then, when we boarded the bus... Guess who did i met? Lol. Isk-kand-darrr and his mates. Haha. Isk! Although we only had a chance to take a picture and although! the picture was not clear, it was Awesome laa dey! Ok Best! Haha! Its either the 'photographer' was not good or is it your phone that you used to take the picture? Haha! was terrible. Need to change phone laa! Legend kepaaah? :O So, blabla. Met lee and feena. Ate at MacD 'cos KFC and Burger King full of hungry barbarians laa. Like us. Haha! Met Gab too. Gab fed the birds and he was like " Eh! I scared that bird choke." Haha. He fed them with salty fries. And he intended to feed them fries with chilli. Can die laa dumb! Haha. So, when we reached the carnival. The first person we saw was.... Mdm Ros! Lol. When she saw us, she quickly grabbed Lee and showed her 'goods'. Harhar! Like tooot. The hiphop competition was great. And i swear, that the Mjc girls did a great job. They are hot, talented and from Mjc laa sey. Awesome!
The noon was hot and sweeeeatyyyy! The band was like ???? Okay, no need to elaborate more. Met alot of people! Coooool. Then, it rained. Heavily! We took shelter in the girls' toilet and eventually we ran like 'pooofts' to the bigger shelter with the stage. Sumpah menyakitkn telinga aku! Why? The band laa.. Tsk. Well, then because of the band and the time, we ran like shits to Downtown. Okay. Then..
I'll stop here. It's just to painful. It really hurts.
So, blablablabla. Reached home at around 7 plus. End.


Although many things happened today, i seriously want to thank Ais for all the stupidity and Isk! At last, we managed to talk on the phone huh? Jyeah! Woots! Haha. Please don't mumble eh! And oh, while in KFC, i heard the 'Forever' song laa! Yeah Yeah!


It ends tonight.