High and Low tides of Life

I've got lots in mind and i feel like pouring it out but i cant seem to put it into words.

Proper words.

How do i boost my self esteem?

How can i stop myself from being paranoid?

Paranoid over the littlest things and the people around me

How do i stand steadily?

So that i wont just tumble and fall when things like this happen

Why am i so tense when i'm paranoid?

I need to let loose but it's not working

I tried to forget but it's not working for me either

Learning to leave it all behind

But it keeps coming back

So when will this drama stop?

I don't know

Must i move ten times forward

Or back out just a little?

I tried to push it all aside but i'm just not strong enough

Or am i just invisible?